Save me from myself

I can't stand it anymore, I just can't.
The walk I walk will never be the same.
No longer able to express myself as one soul,
I must know... I must know why I let myself behind.
Please allow me to follow myself in the darkness.

I'm not crazy, to go deeper and deeper in the cuts,
All I know is that I'm just impatient for my soul's return.
Only if they could just dare me... dare me to leave.

I'm not sure if I can keep on going on like this.
No one seems to know what I've been through.
And hopefully they will never find out about the real me.

If I could just hate myself, enough hate to hate myself,
Then maybe I could set my own desire of death to an end.
But what if I fail to do so? How could I even forgive myself?

It's just a matter of time now, and I'm still waiting.
Waiting for the insult to give me enough courage to leave.
I don't want to wait no more, someone please help me.
Please take me away, away from this insanity.
I just want to be me, the person I used to be...

January 9, 2007

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